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i havnt.. [14 Aug 2007|08:50pm]
i havnt written anything in my own journal for a while.
i usualy go to ana mia to get support.

so..here we go

cw: 145 (ewww!)
height: 5"4

i hate my body!!!!!! i want out and i need help and tips and support.
i love giving support to all you girls, i just dont know what i can do for myself. volleyball tryouts are begining for high school..im trying out and we run four laps in the begining and end of tryouts, so hopefully thats burning some lbs.

but of course, i get home and eat.
i dont know girls...this isnt working

i need to try harder.
i will.
because, im sick of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing this awful reflection. i want her to..go die, or change or something. its gross.

whatever..i need help
support girls..please

i love you all
think thin
stay strong <3

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ughhhhhh [08 Jul 2007|09:57pm]
so of course we had to go to a really nice seafood resteraunt for dinner.
i got fried clams. of course.
and i feel like im gonna die.

im depressed and i feel sick.

i hate it....

regret is the worst thing about food.\

i hope all you girls are doing okay..

stay strong

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not fun.. [03 Jul 2007|11:17pm]
when you eat something....
i feel...empty

i hate myself for even picking up that cookie earlier..its gross
i feel depressed and i hate it.

either anorexia just isnt for me, or im not doing this rite.
i need help, anyone out there wanna try and fast with me sometime this week, let me know. thrusday works good, cuz i have to work and i work with little kids and we're going on this field trip thing, so if i go on that ill most likley only be drinking water.
so, if anyone wants to join, let me know and hopefully this will work out.

thanks everyone.
hope all is well.

good luck.
think thin

need some inspiration?


that oughta do wonders to your mind.
trust me
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wow.... [20 Jun 2007|09:12pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

todays fast sucked.

i went over my friends house, and ate and ate and ate.

i dont even wanna hear the word fast......i cant effing believe i ate that much. im seriously...uuhhhhh. i wanna die.

its nasty, i cant even beggin to think about how much weight ive gained.....

i have to do better tomorrow.

theres like, no excuse.

i have to

i wanna throw up im sooooo effing fat.

im a cow!!!!!!!!!

i hate my life and my body.


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here we go.... [19 Jun 2007|04:32pm]
so, yeah.

im doing pretty good today..for the most part.
im drinking water like a fish and im gonna go to the mall later, so i should burn some calories from walking.

so yeah....

im gonna fast for tomorrow, thursday and friday.

anyone wanna join me, pleaseeee let me know. i love doing it with you guys, cuz it gives me a lot of support.

so anyone wanna join? id love to have company.

let me know, and i hope you guys are doing good.

lots of love and support <3

xo bridget xo
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i wish... [14 Jun 2007|05:13pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

i wish i had no hands so i couldnt pick up food.

i need help...how do you starve yourself....

my way isnt working.

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lets pray... [09 Jun 2007|11:50am]
[ mood | crushed ]

i had a bowl of cereal today...with some sugar...uhhh. so thats gonna kill me, but im gonna try not to eat anything else...im still sorta sick, so im not really that hungry. going to my friends recital today. so hopefully that will distract me from eating.

things arent going so good.

summers almost here and i still look like a fucking cow.

but what else is new rite...

i hate how you watch those movies about anorexic girls, and in the middle of the movie, they're anorexic, but they cant even eat like, a rasin. why cant that be me? i want to feel sick to my stomach every time i bring food to my mouth. i want to be thin, and pretty and happy. but im neither one of those..


summers coming, and my life sucks.

1.im fat
2. im doing really bad in school
3. im scared to even pick up a bathing suit
4. i wish i didnt have hands so i couldnt even pick up food
5. im having weird/scary dreams that keep me up at night.

please....help me....

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uhhh.. [31 May 2007|07:02pm]
[ mood | i hate my life!!!!!!!! ]


im fat. my stomach is growling. i hate my life. im sucking in school..

i need support and encouragement.


I HATE MY BODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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gay.. [28 May 2007|05:41pm]
[ mood | i hate my body ]

yeah, so i havnt been able to go on in like a month because im grounded from the computer, but no ones home so whatever. yeah, ive been doing pretty good until last night. we had friends over, and i ate like the fucking fat ass i am. i need encouragement like...now!!!!!!!

i hate myself. im fat....i hate it!!!!!!!!!

i need some help and encouragement please!! im begging you.

anyone..help me. help me get back the mind set of being thin, and help me get rid of hunger thoughts.

anyone have any tips..what do you do when your starving? or craving something, but you know you cant eat?

any help..please and thank you.

<3 xoxo

good luck to everyone.

( if i dont comment back to your comment rite away, be patient, because im not allowed on the computer, but ill sneak on..be patient)

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uhhh.. [19 May 2007|12:57pm]
[ mood | drained ]

well, my mom just went to the grocery store, so  now i kinda have to eat.. but im not gonna eat tomorrow. tomorrow is my brothers graduation, and im not going to eat. im going to fast tomorrow, hopefully..i want to do good..but what sucks, is that at school, im always hungry. but obviously i cant eat, unless its lunch time or i brought a snack, but i never bring snacks..but when i get home, i eat and eat and eat and eat. it sucks. but, starting monday, im not going to eat at all..im going to fast the entire week, except for the occasional veggy's..

i hope i do good. i feel fat, and for only 5 days (5 school days) i dont want to eat.

thats all i want!!!

wish me luck! <3

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why...god, why [18 May 2007|10:05pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

i feel like a fat ass today..nothing unusualy..but i hate it..i wanna like...run away and die. i hate my body. im so god damn fat!!!!!!!!!!!!

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support...please [18 May 2007|04:22pm]
[ mood | ..here we go ]

..well, i guess this is it. no more eating, no more drinking soda, no more being bored and eating..im just sick of it!!! im sick of being fat. im sick of being me..i want out..please..i just need help from all of you "pro anorexic's" out there..i want your help...eating tricks, weight loss tips, how to overcome your hunger, things like that..i just need all of you!!

please..im begging you..i hate my body...

current weight: 145-ish
highest weight: 150
height: 5"3 maybe a little taller

my scale at home is broken, so i cant weigh myself..but im fat..lets just put it that way..

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